@coldpillow 1. Biomedical Engineering. And I never had to pay tuition, but my parents had to pay for the times I failed some exams. I have tried getting jobs (mostly remote/part-time), but I didn't get in. I had the opportunity for an internship in the branch I like the most (medical imaging, and I didn't have a lot of competitors because it was more of an internship for med students, so they have a different criteria, but they wanted to take me in because I was passionate) which only required having a certain gpa, and I didn't have it. That's not even mentioning the internships organized by a pharmaceutical company and a device maintenance firm, but only a select few were accepted, possibly those who had the requirements they wanted(like it happens in almost every domain), and many of my other colleagues who are still better than me also didn't get in. Later on, the same pharmaceutical company organized courses, I wanted to go, but when I read about a selection, I just gave up.
I don't have much to write of in my CV besides my language skills, college. I was hoping to do a side-project so I could have something, but I am sure my colleagues will be taken for jobs, especially those who have 2-3 projects, an internship, volunteering, history of coordinating/leadership activities (like student associations), or a job history (which about half of students have). And technically, the easiest to get would be the volunteering, the job, and the projects, in hierarchical order.
2. I'd like an internship/project that would eventually set me up for a job (like the examples I've given previously), or an internship during the Master's degree I'd pursue (most probably radiology related), but the Master's degree is an issue of its own.
The first post that
@eveereads made actually described me, I like self-development, I like to do most things alone, but with time, that backfires, and especially now I have to cooperate with people (which I am not so good at) and refurnish my own skills (which, hasn't been successful in a long time). It's easier for me to deal with people outside of professional structures. I generally get the feeling that while everyone that fits a standard definition of success, whether they've achieved it through conventional or alternative means, has worked a lot, in my case it seems it's either unluck or just the way I am (which is very slow, likes to do one thing at a time, focused), the opposite of what it's required today (being multi-tasking, fast-paced, learning new skills quickly, and having tids-and-bits of a personal life too - mostly in the context of mere socialization or teambuildings)
It's unfortunate I have a weak star in the year pillar, in a branch, plus broken structures. It's interesting since my changes and self-reflection are actually triggered by others, when they say something, I tend to ponder on it for a long time. The other situation is when I read pieces of philosophy and advice on the internet for example, and sometimes I happen to feel ... star-struck, even though I didn't necessarily need that advice at the time.
Thank you for the analysis you've both done. I'm curious about ZWDS, I personally relate to the chart that is respecting the birth time, not the solar one (since it's a few minutes before the hour change).
Topic: Struggles in the last 7 years (Read 5733 times)