Struggles in the last 7 years

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[Acvamarie]

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1. Biomedical Engineering. And I never had to pay tuition, but my parents had to pay for the times I failed some exams. I have tried getting jobs (mostly remote/part-time), but I didn't get in. I had the opportunity for an internship in the branch I like the most (medical imaging, and I didn't have a lot of competitors because it was more of an internship for med students, so they have a different criteria, but they wanted to take me in because I was passionate) which only required having a certain gpa, and I didn't have it. That's not even mentioning the internships organized by a pharmaceutical company and a device maintenance firm, but only a select few were accepted, possibly those who had the requirements they wanted(like it happens in almost every domain), and many of my other colleagues who are still better than me also didn't get in. Later on, the same pharmaceutical company organized courses, I wanted to go, but when I read about a selection, I just gave up.

I don't have much to write of in my CV besides my language skills, college. I was hoping to do a side-project so I could have something, but I am sure my colleagues will be taken for jobs,  especially those who have 2-3 projects, an internship, volunteering, history of coordinating/leadership activities (like student associations), or a job history (which about half of students have). And technically, the easiest to get would be the volunteering, the job, and the projects, in hierarchical order.

2. I'd like an internship/project that would eventually set me up for a job (like the examples I've given previously), or an internship during the Master's degree I'd pursue (most probably radiology related), but the Master's degree is an issue of its own.

The first post that @eveereads made actually described me, I like self-development, I like to do most things alone, but with time, that backfires, and especially now I have to cooperate with people (which I am not so good at) and refurnish my own skills (which, hasn't been successful in a long time). It's easier for me to deal with people outside of professional structures. I generally get the feeling that while everyone that fits a standard definition of success, whether they've achieved it through conventional or alternative means, has worked a lot, in my case it seems it's either unluck or just the way I am (which is very slow, likes to do one thing at a time, focused), the opposite of what it's required today (being multi-tasking, fast-paced, learning new skills quickly, and having tids-and-bits of a personal life too - mostly in the context of mere socialization or teambuildings)

It's unfortunate I have a weak star in the year pillar, in a branch, plus broken structures. It's interesting since my changes and self-reflection are actually triggered by others, when they say something, I tend to ponder on it for a long time. The other situation is when I read pieces of philosophy and advice on the internet for example, and sometimes I happen to feel ... star-struck, even though I didn't necessarily need that advice at the time.

Thank you for the analysis you've both done. I'm curious about ZWDS, I personally relate to the chart that is respecting the birth time, not the solar one (since it's a few minutes before the hour change).

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[eveereads]

I don't wish the fate of a proper Yang Blade on anyone—especially on a woman.

In the grand scheme of things (not in the sense of an individual's chart, but in the broader sense of the flow of nature), the Yang Blade eventually transforms into the Pian Guan (Seven Killings).
The reason the Yang Blade's Corresponding Spirit (相神) is the Pian Guan is that it must first experience all the pain and suffering that exists in the world before others do, so that later, when others go through the same, it can be there for them.

Therefore, when a Yang Blade is born with Pian Guan appearing on the Heavenly Stems, it is destined to lose everything—parents, siblings, spouse, children, wealth, and so on. Such losses may occur one after another, or even all at once. So, Acvamarie, you're actually lucky to be born broken.

Also, if I may give you a piece of advice—

I'm really not worried about you. You were born into a good, stable family, and you're surrounded by people who genuinely care about you. If you're finding it difficult to connect with them right now, that's only temporary. You still have much to learn and room to grow.

Contrary to what many people believe, we humans aren't truly complete until we reach around forty to forty-five years of age. That means you still have at least twenty more years to learn, to evolve, and to gain experience. Having those years aligned with Fire, while being someone of Wood, is a blessing—it fuels your growth and strengthens your character.

You were also born into a competitive environment, and that competition has only intensified since the beginning of the Fire era. If what you're doing now is something you truly love, stay with it and never waver. In time, people will come to you for your expertise instead of expecting you to go to them.

That's the path to success: perseverance.
If you persevere in what you love, you will succeed.

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[eveereads]

For a proper Yang Blade (陽刃), a Resource Star (印星) not only protects the Pian Guan (偏官, Seven Killings) from being harmed by the Output Stars (食傷), but also continuously creates challenges in order to preserve the integrity of the structure itself.

If external circumstances do not bring difficulties, the Day Master will unconsciously create them on their own, using those hardships as opportunities to overcome obstacles and gain experience.

In other words, when a proper Yang Blade possesses Resource Stars, the Day Master tends to drive themselves into even greater adversity.

-> This, in a way, is why the structure is called the Blade. It is the structure of a warrior born to fight, to bleed, and to prevail.

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[Acvamarie]

@eveereads

Thank you so much for the absolutely beautiful advice!

If I am not mistaken, inbetween the Fire and Metal decades there is also an Earth decade. Is it supposed to be more stable compared to Fire and Metal?

[Acvamarie]

@coldpillow

Now I definitely can see Pig hour resonating!

I remember chatting with you on my first post about the health palace, and mentioning guidance from older people, or having an older spouse (if my memory serves me right), I might ask more questions about those.

 From a ZWDS perspective, will the spouse be supportive? (a continuation of your question to @eveereads ) I read a lot of positive things.

And if the spouse will have fire and metal, will it help bring more balance to my broken structure?

Also, I'm kind of worried about the earth decade in ZWDS, the property palace stars don't seem very beneficial.

[eveereads]

Sorry! I mean Yin daymaster. Yin vs Yang polarity. Example: https://bazi-calculator.com/?licz=1&y=1998&m=8&d=12&h=00%3A30&g=0&l=0&s=1

Not "Yin" as a resource star.

From random sources I have read so far, mostly are fixated on Yang daymasters.

The reason Yin Day Masters with a Yang Blade (陽刃格) structure are rarely discussed in the context of structural analysis is because of the inherent limitations of the Yin letter itself.

1. Since a Yin Day Master embodies Yin energy, the instinct for self-protection arises before the sense of duty or righteousness.
For a proper Yang Blade, the expected act is to step forward and take the blow first to protect others even at one's own cost.
But a Yin Day Master with the Yang Blade configuration will instinctively flinch and step back when danger occurs; they cannot move first. At that very moment, it is usually the Rob Wealth (劫財) beside them that rushes in to protect others. (And yet, when everything is over, it's the Yin Day Master who receives the praise because the Yin letter is what appears on the Heavenly Stem, visible to the world.)

2. Because the Yin nature prioritizes completion of the self over the success of others, such a person focuses more on personal perfection and achievement than on sacrifice. In other words, the spirit of self-sacrifice required for a true Yang Blade is comparatively lacking.

Of course, this doesn't mean that a Yin Day Master with a Yang Blade faces fewer or lesser hardships than a Yang Day Master with a Yang Blade.
In fact, because the Seven Killings (偏官) is Yin in nature, it can be even more painful. When two Yang elements clash, they leave each other room to coexist, but when two Yin elements collide, one must perish for the other to survive.

Still, if we say that the life of a Yin Day Master with a Yang Blade is easier overall than that of a Yang one, it's because their Month Branch is Yang. They start life with something already established. They don't need to carve out new territory themselves; the environment or people around them tend to create it for them.

By contrast:

A Yin Day Master with a Yang Month Branch (陰日干 – 陽月支) is one who invades an unclaimed territory that's already established.

A Yang Day Master with a Yin Month Branch (陽日干 – 陰月支), on the other hand, is one who ventures outward to create a new domain because their original ground has disappeared.

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@eveereads

Thank you so much for the absolutely beautiful advice!

If I am not mistaken, inbetween the Fire and Metal decades there is also an Earth decade. Is it supposed to be more stable compared to Fire and Metal?

When examining the flow of the Luck Pillars, you should view it not through the Five Elements but from the perspective of the Four Seasons.

Among the Twelve Earthly Branches, the reason that the Earth branches—Chen (辰), Xu (戌), Chou (丑), and Wei (未)—exist is to connect the different seasons and mark their transitions.

For example, Wei Earth (未土) lies at the tail end of summer; it exists to organize and conclude the activity of summer and prepare for the transition into autumn.

Therefore, it should not be interpreted simply as the Earth element within the Five Elements system, but rather as a seasonal junction—a point of change and adjustment within the cyclical flow of time.

未月 (July) still is part of summer. (To the rest of the world, even 申月 [August] is considered summer.)

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1. Since a Yin Day Master embodies Yin energy, the instinct for self-protection arises before the sense of duty or righteousness.
For a proper Yang Blade, the expected act is to step forward and take the blow first to protect others even at one's own cost.
But a Yin Day Master with the Yang Blade configuration will instinctively flinch and step back when danger occurs; they cannot move first. At that very moment, it is usually the Rob Wealth (劫財) beside them that rushes in to protect others. (And yet, when everything is over, it's the Yin Day Master who receives the praise because the Yin letter is what appears on the Heavenly Stem, visible to the world.)

@eveereads

This is the only part that I'm familiar with.

Is it true that a male yin daymaster with blade structure will be "weaker" than females? I mean, he's surrounded by strong female figures: braver, smarter, more competent. And they're actually helpful to him.

Because rob wealth also represents people of the opposite gender.

I think it's especially true if the daymaster doesn't have self element anywhere else other than day stem.

If this is an established theory, then I have not heard of it.

Regardless of your physical sex, if your Day Master is yin, you're considered female in the eyes of nature. So, your Rob Wealth is male, not female (in the eys of nature).

[2noBody]

1. Since a Yin Day Master embodies Yin energy, the instinct for self-protection arises before the sense of duty or righteousness.
For a proper Yang Blade, the expected act is to step forward and take the blow first to protect others even at one's own cost.
But a Yin Day Master with the Yang Blade configuration will instinctively flinch and step back when danger occurs; they cannot move first. At that very moment, it is usually the Rob Wealth (劫財) beside them that rushes in to protect others. (And yet, when everything is over, it's the Yin Day Master who receives the praise because the Yin letter is what appears on the Heavenly Stem, visible to the world.)

@eveereads

This is the only part that I'm familiar with.

Is it true that a male yin daymaster with blade structure will be "weaker" than females? I mean, he's surrounded by strong female figures: braver, smarter, more competent. And they're actually helpful to him.

Because rob wealth also represents people of the opposite gender.

I think it's especially true if the daymaster doesn't have self element anywhere else other than day stem.

If this is an established theory, then I have not heard of it.

Regardless of your physical sex, if your Day Master is yin, you're considered female in the eyes of nature. So, your Rob Wealth is male, not female (in the eys of nature).

Please forgive me. I never interfere with other people's thoughts. But this is such a gross misunderstanding of the concept of Yin Yang that I feel obliged to make some comments.
A man with a Yin Day Master is more likely to achieve his goal through many small actions—Yin. Yang is one big change to achieve a goal. The idea that a man with a Yin Day Master is a woman is ridiculous. I apologize.