Desperately seeking help to read my chart

[ColorfulDaisy]

Hi everyone, sincere greetings to all of you here.

I’ve been feeling extremely depressed the past year plus from my job, it’s like I’m going to go crazy any time soon. Desperately hoping to seek help to read my charts for advice and direction..

Female
Born on 01 November 1993
11:31 AM
Born in Singapore

[coldpillow]

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[ColorfulDaisy]

Hi coldpillow, please know that I’m extremely grateful that you took out time to analyze my chart.

I don’t think I have any other help problem except maybe some body aches I’ve recently gotten married (registered in May 2024) and given birth (Aug 2024) this year. Have been taking care of my newborn while working since my confinement ended.

Ever since I’ve gotten pregnant, I had been facing a lot of challenges while managing with the morning sickness, and given tasks that are not part of my scope of work ever since joining this new team in late Jan 2024.

As I’m on a 2 years contract, which will be due in early June 2025, I’m just not sure if i should just quit right now because my superior is affecting my mental health quite a lot. If I do tender soon, I’m also worried if i’ll be able to land a new job soon within the next 1-2 months asap as I’d still like to have income to support my newborn’s expenses. I’m honestly not sure if I’m capable of pulling through to serve till the end of my contract in June 2025.

I’m really at my wits end in term of career and wealth wise, it’s as if no matter how much effort I put in, it seems futile.

[coldpillow]

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[ColorfulDaisy]

Frankly, I don’t feel like I have a lot of work. Rather, I feel unfulfilled and feeling stagnant as I’m not doing things that I was hired for which frustrates me alot since I do feel I’m wasting my time and effort the longer I stay. I was promised that I’ll be involved and be able to manage part of a big project, however my superior thus far has been only giving me redundant paperwork and has been repeatedly requested for me re-do same piece of work on many occasions now because he did not provide full clarity of his expectations (on purpose just to keep me “busy”) even when I’ve asked explicitly when being assigned a task.

I’m feeling depressed because I am belittled in my job as I would be intentionally excluded out of meetings and yet being expected to be well aware of what was going on to be able to complete my given tasks, and when work were done but my superior seemed to be able to easily forgotten those said work was completed solely by me and constantly commented to others to make it sound like I haven’t been doing anything or much at work. He forced me to take unpaid leave when I was pregnant in the early stage despite being capable enough to work, just not physically well enough to be climbing up and down the stairs just to meet him at his office desk, and subsequently after returning from 2 months of the unpaid leave he would sometimes try to force me to be physically active again to climb up and down the stairs just to “catch up” with him or traveling to different meeting rooms for team meetings that could have been conducted easily online when I was heavily pregnant at later months. Colleagues have mentioned if we could take it online but somehow he refuses to do online meetings.

Just to share abit more, while at work, my mother in law helps out with my newborn although I can’t trust her the most with it but i try to make do with it. My husband, although not perfect, but is quite a champ on most days where he would take over caretaking duties if he is at home or when I’m catching up on sleep at night. So I believe they are really my current pillar of strength.

Hence I can really tell I’m losing my mental state due to work and for this, I really hope to know what step I can take moving forward as my family really needs the income. Would I be able to land onto another job, or must I remain and complete this job contract? Or else, is there any other alternatives or things that I should know about from my chart so that I might have a clearer idea on the direction I need to take?

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[Under10Gods]

Why do they all turn to you when the job is already done... Your Master of the Day is Yang Fire. If you were born in the Southern Hemisphere - the earthly branch of the month - too. The year 2026 will be very difficult for you. It is in resounding, and has already begun its influence on you. And this year, which began on December 21 - the Gods are also against you. But not so much. But in total... If there is an opportunity to sit at home until the end of 2026 - it is better to use this opportunity. Or take a break.

[ColorfulDaisy]

Hi coldpillow,

Staying till March might be something I can do.

I tried to give some thought to the perspective you’ve shared about my superior and am still hoping that I’m able to see beyond what my current sentiments are.

I personally I do enjoy working a lot and I like being busy with work, no matter how significant or insignificant those pieces of work might be. I reckon it’s just the current environment and my superior that’s affecting my sanity quite drastically.

Household wise, there’s some ups and downs with the arrival of a baby and of course challenges to overcome with my partner about the differences when caring for a child, which may get quite upsetting sometimes, but I’m not sure if I’m being stubborn to pin most of my unhappiness solely just on work.

My objective for writing in really was to hope that there’s some light I can be directed towards for work wise so that I can potentially reduce, or better still stop all the negativity that has been constantly playing in my head and gather back some of my sanity.

[ren]

Hi ColorfulDaisy,

We get our bazi chart read to better understand our nature and potentials. It also provides a timeline for when things may occur.
Sometimes when we are in crisis, a divination method may be used to help provide clarity about the current situation.

Regarding a divination, most people on this forum read a hexagram that you cast with your query question.
For more strategic planning, QMDJ may be a suitable method to use.
On the .net forum, there was a member who reads QMDJ charts. But I have not seen him here. There is also a member here who reads charts professionally; if interested, I can PM his name to you.
The way I currently read your natal chart, it wants to control metal. But your current LP tends to go against that and wants to control Xu-Earth instead. Xu Earth represents your thoughts and thinking. It is being stressed, which may explain the way you are currently feeling.

The other aspect in your chart is the water in the stems. This water can represent how you relate to people in authority (like a boss) and your spouse. During the current (sub) LP, water may also apply some stress on you.
IMHO, I would try to get a hold of your emotions. List out the things that frustrate you. Then be mindful of when these events are happening. If your boss is an a-hole, understand he is an a-hole and keep it moving.

I would list my skill sets and work goals. Then try to enhance these skills and goals within your current work environment or on your own. This will enhance your intentions, as you may think about moving to a new job. It may also make you more visible in your current environment and create some opportunities.

Frustration sucks away our (postive) energies, and as a new wife and mother, you need all the energy you can foster. The world is full of a-holes; don't let them frustrate you. Try to focus your energies on your skill sets and goals instead.

Congratulations and, All the best,

ren

[ren]

Quick question...

Is your spouse from the same country as you are?
Is he older?

Thanks...

[ColorfulDaisy]

Why do they all turn to you when the job is already done... Your Master of the Day is Yang Fire. If you were born in the Southern Hemisphere - the earthly branch of the month - too. The year 2026 will be very difficult for you. It is in resounding, and has already begun its influence on you. And this year, which began on December 21 - the Gods are also against you. But not so much. But in total... If there is an opportunity to sit at home until the end of 2026 - it is better to use this opportunity. Or take a break.

Hi Under10Gods, Thank you for joining and sharing your kind thoughts.

I don’t think our family can afford with me not working until end of 2026 as it is quite a long stretch of 2 years, and we really do need the income. My partner wouldn’t be able to support us all with just his earnings alone, and I’m worried being cooped up too long without working would take a toll on my mental health with it a doubt and would feel increasingly useless as a person myself.

[ColorfulDaisy]

Quick question...

Is your spouse from the same country as you are?
Is he older?

Thanks...

Hi ren, thank you so much for your kind words. You were able to point out that my emotions does indeed require some organizing and were also able to articulate what I’m currently going through. I’d really hope if I can take some time to fully absorb all of what you’ve said before I pen down my response and possibility to also seek some clarifications with regards to them if you don’t mind?

And to answer your question, my spouse birth country isn’t the same as me and he is 2 years younger. I’ve always thought I’d end up someone older though. Could you share what other insights we can possibly understand about my chart? You seemed to be on to something

[Michael]

Hihi, new LP Bing Yin will start 10 months ahead on Feb25. 2024 is bad as Jia Chen clash month career pillar Xu. Also still in LP Chou that punishes career month Xu. 2024 All water got entombed into Chen and clash Xu Xu your body so is very uncomfortable! 2024 the Jia year does transform Gui Ren Gui to prevent water attack of fire DM Bing. So your problem it’s the Chen clash Xu Xu and Chou Xu punishment plus Chou combo You to strengthen wet gang harder for Si Xu Xu dry gang to control to obtain it(wealth).

Feb2025 Yi Si new LP Bing Yin will be great! Yi transform Ren Ren to prevent direct attack on DM Bing and Bing is also same image as Si tat has a dry gang Si Xu Xu to control You metal wealth!

2026 Bing Wu no more wood in the stem to transform gui Ren gui so water will attack fire DM Bing but you are a strong DM fire due to Bing Xu Xu Si so can take it.

Wu horse is great as it strengthen dry gang Si Xu Xu to control You metal wealth!

Happy New Year 2025!

My contribution on this new year day! 🙏

My 2 cents!

[ColorfulDaisy]

We get our bazi chart read to better understand our nature and potentials. It also provides a timeline for when things may occur.
Sometimes when we are in crisis, a divination method may be used to help provide clarity about the current situation.

Regarding a divination, most people on this forum read a hexagram that you cast with your query question.
For more strategic planning, QMDJ may be a suitable method to use.
On the .net forum, there was a member who reads QMDJ charts. But I have not seen him here. There is also a member here who reads charts professionally; if interested, I can PM his name to you.

Hi ren, I would appreciate if you can PM me his name as after consideration, I do think I’ll need to seek some clarity to move on from my current situation to make certain decisions.

The way I currently read your natal chart, it wants to control metal. But your current LP tends to go against that and wants to control Xu-Earth instead. Xu Earth represents your thoughts and thinking. It is being stressed, which may explain the way you are currently feeling.

The other aspect in your chart is the water in the stems. This water can represent how you relate to people in authority (like a boss) and your spouse. During the current (sub) LP, water may also apply some stress on you.
IMHO, I would try to get a hold of your emotions. List out the things that frustrate you. Then be mindful of when these events are happening. If your boss is an a-hole, understand he is an a-hole and keep it moving.

I would list my skill sets and work goals. Then try to enhance these skills and goals within your current work environment or on your own. This will enhance your intentions, as you may think about moving to a new job. It may also make you more visible in your current environment and create some opportunities.

Frustration sucks away our (postive) energies, and as a new wife and mother, you need all the energy you can foster. The world is full of a-holes; don't let them frustrate you. Try to focus your energies on your skill sets and goals instead.

Congratulations and, All the best,

ren

I’ve digested your advises and had been trying to apply some of them as you’ve kindly shared. Unfortunately I’m unable to seek new potential opportunities within this team and organization as my superior has no intention to help any of us to enhance existing or even develop new skills to value add our current role. So it’s very limiting in terms of growth as some of my colleagues have already been stagnant for years. My partner has also giving certain pressure in terms of expectation as a new mother to our child and as a wife in terms of bringing in some level of income to help sustain the family’s expenses.

I guess I’m back to square one, with clouded thoughts once again after facing a road block as I attempted to seek for some support in terms of career growth from my superior but to no avail. I’ve been limited to just doing basic administrative work I.e. scheduling meetings and even to the extend of being introduce recently as a admin staff too even though that’s not my role nor position when I agreed to join this team for the project.

[ColorfulDaisy]

Hihi, new LP Bing Yin will start 10 months ahead on Feb25. 2024 is bad as Jia Chen clash month career pillar Xu. Also still in LP Chou that punishes career month Xu. 2024 All water got entombed into Chen and clash Xu Xu your body so is very uncomfortable! 2024 the Jia year does transform Gui Ren Gui to prevent water attack of fire DM Bing. So your problem it’s the Chen clash Xu Xu and Chou Xu punishment plus Chou combo You to strengthen wet gang harder for Si Xu Xu dry gang to control to obtain it(wealth).

Feb2025 Yi Si new LP Bing Yin will be great! Yi transform Ren Ren to prevent direct attack on DM Bing and Bing is also same image as Si tat has a dry gang Si Xu Xu to control You metal wealth!

2026 Bing Wu no more wood in the stem to transform gui Ren gui so water will attack fire DM Bing but you are a strong DM fire due to Bing Xu Xu Si so can take it.

Wu horse is great as it strengthen dry gang Si Xu Xu to control You metal wealth!

Happy New Year 2025!

My contribution on this new year day! 🙏

My 2 cents!

Hi Michael,

Happy new year to you! Hope you had a blessed celebration. Thank you so much for taking time and sharing of your thoughts.

Based on your analysis, it does somehow describe what had been happening for 2024 for me. Uncomfortable body I believe could relate to me facing pregnancy discomfort and the stress of juggling my pregnancy then delivering my child while working? Hence it was difficult for me to secure wealth in a sense despite having a job, due to my pregnancy difficulties I was forced to take a few months of unpaid leave hence unable to generate income for a period, and with my child born prematurely, I had to account for higher medical bills despite being on paid medical leave? So all in all, I can’t save any money whereas no matter how much I try to earn, wealth is still flowing outwards?

It seems like Feb 2025 onwards, things would look to be more positive for me? I’m not sure if I can understand it to be a possibility for me to secure a new job in that sense? Furthermore 2026 is said to be challenging as well but seems like I can overcome it better than how it has been for me in 2024?

I hope I’ve managed to understand your kind message. Otherwise would appreciate if you can correct me in any areas that I’ve misunderstood them. Thank you!