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FREE Life Reading Request / Re: A Life of Resilience and Loss: Seeking Guidance for a Bleak Future
« on: November 10, 2025, 08:05:02 AM »
Hi @coldpillow ,
Thank you for this profound and compassionate email. Your words resonate deeply, and I fully recognize this pattern and the trauma you describe.
Except for the pattern of being bullied, deceived, and manipulated, my chart also reveals the other side: a nature of naivety and having entirely no support system for me since I was born. I am entirely self-made by struggle.
It is a painful truth to confront. I have always tried to live with moral integrity—never hurting others, avoiding vices, and earning an honest living. I never have sex outside marriage, never get drunk, and never gamble, as I believe so much in karmic balance. Because of this, it is especially difficult to accept that I have never been granted the blessings or cosmic balance that others seem to find. At the very least, I wanted a small piece of peace and kindness in return for always trying not to hurt others.
As the Bing Chen 10 LP years arrives, you can imagine my desperation. With two children, one of whom has physical limitations, I feel the weight of everything. I am enduring, but I look to the universe and ask: when will my time come?
Thank you for your guidance and for seeing the core of this struggle.
Thank you for this profound and compassionate email. Your words resonate deeply, and I fully recognize this pattern and the trauma you describe.
Except for the pattern of being bullied, deceived, and manipulated, my chart also reveals the other side: a nature of naivety and having entirely no support system for me since I was born. I am entirely self-made by struggle.
It is a painful truth to confront. I have always tried to live with moral integrity—never hurting others, avoiding vices, and earning an honest living. I never have sex outside marriage, never get drunk, and never gamble, as I believe so much in karmic balance. Because of this, it is especially difficult to accept that I have never been granted the blessings or cosmic balance that others seem to find. At the very least, I wanted a small piece of peace and kindness in return for always trying not to hurt others.
As the Bing Chen 10 LP years arrives, you can imagine my desperation. With two children, one of whom has physical limitations, I feel the weight of everything. I am enduring, but I look to the universe and ask: when will my time come?
Thank you for your guidance and for seeing the core of this struggle.
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FREE Life Reading Request / Re: A Life of Resilience and Loss: Seeking Guidance for a Bleak Future
« on: November 10, 2025, 05:41:50 AM »
I just want to start by saying a massive thank you to Master @smsek .Your analysis... it honestly left me speechless. It’s like you held up a mirror to my entire life and put words to struggles I've never been able to fully explain. The idea of "justified preparedness" instead of "false hope" is something I'm going to carry with me. Truly, from the bottom of my heart, thank you.
If it's okay, I’d like to add a few pieces from my own story that might fill in some of the blanks, and I’d love to hear what you all think.
1. On my "Missing" Fire Element (The Direct Resource)
For me, this wasn't just an absence; it felt more complicated. My mum did love me, I know she did. But we were so poor, and with my dad always away for work, the stress just wore her down. That motherly warmth (the Fire) was often completely drowned out by her having to be the strict disciplinarian – a role that feels much more like that punishing Metal energy in my chart. So in a way, the one person who should have been my main source of "Resource" was often the one wielding the axe. It makes the hunger for that warm, supportive energy in my life make so much sense.
2. My Lifelong Hope for a True Partner
I know I need to focus on myself first, and Mr @smsek advice to build my own inner fire before jumping into a relationship is 100% wise. I guess I’m just being vulnerable here – the desire for a real, loving partnership has been a constant ache since I was a kid, probably because of that missing emotional validation early on. Seeing that the 2026 Bing Wu year has both Hong Yan and Hong Luan… it’s hard not to get my hopes up. I guess my question to you all is: Is it naive to think that this period could actually bring the real thing? Or is the universe more likely to just dangle the temptation in front of me to test my newfound inner strength?
3. A Few Lingering Worries about the Bing Chen Luck Pillar
I’ll be honest, my brain keeps getting stuck on the technicalities. I’m so scared to get my hopes up. I keep worrying that:
1. Instead of the Bing Fire (Yang Fire) strengthening me, it’ll just combine with all the Xin Metal in my chart and somehow turn into more Water (which would just put the fire out).
2. And that the Chen Earth base will just team up with the You Metal already there, making my overthinking and perfectionism (that Eating God energy) even worse, basically sabotaging the whole thing.
And this leads to my biggest confusion about my chart's core structure. I know I have a tiny bit of Ji Earth root hiding in the Chou (丑) branch of my Hour Pillar, which should be a good thing. But it feels completely trapped – it’s got the 7-Kill (Yi Wood) sitting right on top of it, and the Chou itself is busy combining with You to make even more Metal. So, what does that make me?
Am I just a straightforward Weak Day Master?
Is there a case for this being a Fake Follow Son chart?
Or could it possibly be a true Follow Son chart? I know that tiny Ji Earth root hiding in the Chou branch of my Hour Pillar is basically helpless and useless. It's buried and suppressed
Mr @smsek has given me the courage to believe that the sunrise is coming. I think I just need some reassurance from all of you to help quiet these nagging doubts. Any further thoughts you have would mean the world to me.
Thanks for listening, everyone.
If it's okay, I’d like to add a few pieces from my own story that might fill in some of the blanks, and I’d love to hear what you all think.
1. On my "Missing" Fire Element (The Direct Resource)
For me, this wasn't just an absence; it felt more complicated. My mum did love me, I know she did. But we were so poor, and with my dad always away for work, the stress just wore her down. That motherly warmth (the Fire) was often completely drowned out by her having to be the strict disciplinarian – a role that feels much more like that punishing Metal energy in my chart. So in a way, the one person who should have been my main source of "Resource" was often the one wielding the axe. It makes the hunger for that warm, supportive energy in my life make so much sense.
2. My Lifelong Hope for a True Partner
I know I need to focus on myself first, and Mr @smsek advice to build my own inner fire before jumping into a relationship is 100% wise. I guess I’m just being vulnerable here – the desire for a real, loving partnership has been a constant ache since I was a kid, probably because of that missing emotional validation early on. Seeing that the 2026 Bing Wu year has both Hong Yan and Hong Luan… it’s hard not to get my hopes up. I guess my question to you all is: Is it naive to think that this period could actually bring the real thing? Or is the universe more likely to just dangle the temptation in front of me to test my newfound inner strength?
3. A Few Lingering Worries about the Bing Chen Luck Pillar
I’ll be honest, my brain keeps getting stuck on the technicalities. I’m so scared to get my hopes up. I keep worrying that:
1. Instead of the Bing Fire (Yang Fire) strengthening me, it’ll just combine with all the Xin Metal in my chart and somehow turn into more Water (which would just put the fire out).
2. And that the Chen Earth base will just team up with the You Metal already there, making my overthinking and perfectionism (that Eating God energy) even worse, basically sabotaging the whole thing.
And this leads to my biggest confusion about my chart's core structure. I know I have a tiny bit of Ji Earth root hiding in the Chou (丑) branch of my Hour Pillar, which should be a good thing. But it feels completely trapped – it’s got the 7-Kill (Yi Wood) sitting right on top of it, and the Chou itself is busy combining with You to make even more Metal. So, what does that make me?
Am I just a straightforward Weak Day Master?
Is there a case for this being a Fake Follow Son chart?
Or could it possibly be a true Follow Son chart? I know that tiny Ji Earth root hiding in the Chou branch of my Hour Pillar is basically helpless and useless. It's buried and suppressed
Mr @smsek has given me the courage to believe that the sunrise is coming. I think I just need some reassurance from all of you to help quiet these nagging doubts. Any further thoughts you have would mean the world to me.
Thanks for listening, everyone.
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FREE Life Reading Request / A Life of Resilience and Loss: Seeking Guidance for a Bleak Future
« on: November 10, 2025, 02:46:35 AM »
Hello everyone,
I am sharing my story and BaZi chart details in the hope of finding some clarity and guidance during an overwhelmingly difficult time. Any insight you can offer would mean a great deal.
My Details:
Date of Birth: September 18, 1983
Time of Birth: 2:00 AM
Place of Birth: Padang, Indonesia (GMT +7)
Gender: Male
My Journey: A Story of Resilience and Heartbreak
Ages 0-30: Foundation in Hardship
I entered the world as the eldest of four children into a life of poverty. We lived in a small, dilapidated house where financial struggle was our constant companion. Despite these challenges, all of us persevered and completed high school.
Driven by a desire for a better future, I pursued a law degree from 2001 to 2007. However, the deep scars from years of bullying had left me with severe anxiety and a crippling sense of inferiority. While I could excel academically, my fragile self-confidence made social interactions a constant struggle. This was compounded by a profound lack of acceptance, particularly from the opposite gender, which left me feeling socially invisible. This cycle of rejection stunted my growth; my emotional and social development effectively froze in my late teens. By 2007, the weight of it all became unbearable, forcing me to make the painful decision to drop out.
The following years were marked by relentless employment rejection. My turning point came from teaching myself computer skills, which led to poorly paid technical work at local internet cafes from 2009 to 2012. This difficult period was shattered on June 17, 2012, when I found my mother unconscious from a stroke; she passed away soon after. Her loss was a devastating blow, as she was my closest confidant.
Seeking a fresh start, I moved away from my hometown. In a moment of desperation, I fabricated my experience and landed a role as Head of HR in October 2012—a position that offered a salary three times the norm for a fresh graduate, finally providing a glimpse of stability.
Ages 30-40: Professional Gains and Personal Losses
I discovered a natural aptitude for HR. My analytical skills, creativity, and the interpersonal empathy honed by my own struggles allowed me to connect with people and thrive in my career.
On November 25, 2017, I entered an arranged marriage with a woman (born June 10, 2000, at 5:00 AM in Makassar) after knowing her for only three weeks. The marriage was troubled from the start, strained by her family's persistent financial demands.
Our daughter was born on September 15, 2018 17:43 (GMT +8). Seeking refuge from the pressure of my in-laws, I relocated to Bali on March 22, 2020. The separation only intensified the family interference, and my wife left me in February 2021. I fought tirelessly to reunite our family and succeeded in bringing her and our daughter back to Bali by December 2021.
On September 24, 2022 at 12:32 PM (GMT +8), our son was born. He has a physical disability, as his right arm developed only to the elbow. I embraced this challenge wholeheartedly and, striving for peace, even reconciled with my wife's family and supported them when her father was diagnosed with a tumor in April 2022.
Amidst this turmoil, I never let go of my dream to continue my education and help others less fortunate. However, in May 2023, my own health faltered, and I underwent surgery for kidney stones.
The Final Betrayal and A Present Without Light
Just as I dared to look forward again—and after we had made concrete plans to enroll in college together—my world collapsed. On March 16, 2024, I discovered my wife was having an affair through her phone chats. She left our home on April 1, 2024, promising to return, but ultimately decided to live and work apart from me permanently.
This abandonment was the culmination of ongoing deceit, including severe financial manipulation. Most heartbreakingly, she had depleted the savings I had painstakingly gathered for our son's future robotic prosthetic. My own dream of an education was extinguished in the wreckage of her betrayal—for the second time in my life, it was over before it could even begin.
I loved her deeply, and that love has not simply vanished. I am now drowning in grief while single-handedly caring for our two small children. I know I should let go, but my heart clings. I see in my chart the absence of a true Direct Resource, and I feel it in my soul—a lifelong lack of emotional validation that makes this loss infinitely more paralyzing.
Out of sheer necessity, I now live with a woman I am not married to (since April 9, 2025). This is a practical arrangement for childcare, devoid of love—a matter of survival. Though officially divorced since January 9, 2025, I cannot form new attachments. My future feels bleak and uncertain.
My BaZi Question
In my chart, I see that my next 10-Year Luck Pillar (大运), Bing Chen, will arrive in 2026. This is the only period in my life where Bing Fire appears as my Direct Resource. A part of me is desperately clinging to this as a sign of impending change, but another part is terrified of false hope.
Does this Bing Chen truly represent my best opportunity for a turnaround, or is it just a mirage in my current darkness?
Given my life's pattern of resilience followed by devastating setbacks, any insight into what this pillar might signify—a chance for love, career, or finally achieving my dreams—would be a beacon of hope.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story.
I am sharing my story and BaZi chart details in the hope of finding some clarity and guidance during an overwhelmingly difficult time. Any insight you can offer would mean a great deal.
My Details:
Date of Birth: September 18, 1983
Time of Birth: 2:00 AM
Place of Birth: Padang, Indonesia (GMT +7)
Gender: Male
My Journey: A Story of Resilience and Heartbreak
Ages 0-30: Foundation in Hardship
I entered the world as the eldest of four children into a life of poverty. We lived in a small, dilapidated house where financial struggle was our constant companion. Despite these challenges, all of us persevered and completed high school.
Driven by a desire for a better future, I pursued a law degree from 2001 to 2007. However, the deep scars from years of bullying had left me with severe anxiety and a crippling sense of inferiority. While I could excel academically, my fragile self-confidence made social interactions a constant struggle. This was compounded by a profound lack of acceptance, particularly from the opposite gender, which left me feeling socially invisible. This cycle of rejection stunted my growth; my emotional and social development effectively froze in my late teens. By 2007, the weight of it all became unbearable, forcing me to make the painful decision to drop out.
The following years were marked by relentless employment rejection. My turning point came from teaching myself computer skills, which led to poorly paid technical work at local internet cafes from 2009 to 2012. This difficult period was shattered on June 17, 2012, when I found my mother unconscious from a stroke; she passed away soon after. Her loss was a devastating blow, as she was my closest confidant.
Seeking a fresh start, I moved away from my hometown. In a moment of desperation, I fabricated my experience and landed a role as Head of HR in October 2012—a position that offered a salary three times the norm for a fresh graduate, finally providing a glimpse of stability.
Ages 30-40: Professional Gains and Personal Losses
I discovered a natural aptitude for HR. My analytical skills, creativity, and the interpersonal empathy honed by my own struggles allowed me to connect with people and thrive in my career.
On November 25, 2017, I entered an arranged marriage with a woman (born June 10, 2000, at 5:00 AM in Makassar) after knowing her for only three weeks. The marriage was troubled from the start, strained by her family's persistent financial demands.
Our daughter was born on September 15, 2018 17:43 (GMT +8). Seeking refuge from the pressure of my in-laws, I relocated to Bali on March 22, 2020. The separation only intensified the family interference, and my wife left me in February 2021. I fought tirelessly to reunite our family and succeeded in bringing her and our daughter back to Bali by December 2021.
On September 24, 2022 at 12:32 PM (GMT +8), our son was born. He has a physical disability, as his right arm developed only to the elbow. I embraced this challenge wholeheartedly and, striving for peace, even reconciled with my wife's family and supported them when her father was diagnosed with a tumor in April 2022.
Amidst this turmoil, I never let go of my dream to continue my education and help others less fortunate. However, in May 2023, my own health faltered, and I underwent surgery for kidney stones.
The Final Betrayal and A Present Without Light
Just as I dared to look forward again—and after we had made concrete plans to enroll in college together—my world collapsed. On March 16, 2024, I discovered my wife was having an affair through her phone chats. She left our home on April 1, 2024, promising to return, but ultimately decided to live and work apart from me permanently.
This abandonment was the culmination of ongoing deceit, including severe financial manipulation. Most heartbreakingly, she had depleted the savings I had painstakingly gathered for our son's future robotic prosthetic. My own dream of an education was extinguished in the wreckage of her betrayal—for the second time in my life, it was over before it could even begin.
I loved her deeply, and that love has not simply vanished. I am now drowning in grief while single-handedly caring for our two small children. I know I should let go, but my heart clings. I see in my chart the absence of a true Direct Resource, and I feel it in my soul—a lifelong lack of emotional validation that makes this loss infinitely more paralyzing.
Out of sheer necessity, I now live with a woman I am not married to (since April 9, 2025). This is a practical arrangement for childcare, devoid of love—a matter of survival. Though officially divorced since January 9, 2025, I cannot form new attachments. My future feels bleak and uncertain.
My BaZi Question
In my chart, I see that my next 10-Year Luck Pillar (大运), Bing Chen, will arrive in 2026. This is the only period in my life where Bing Fire appears as my Direct Resource. A part of me is desperately clinging to this as a sign of impending change, but another part is terrified of false hope.
Does this Bing Chen truly represent my best opportunity for a turnaround, or is it just a mirage in my current darkness?
Given my life's pattern of resilience followed by devastating setbacks, any insight into what this pillar might signify—a chance for love, career, or finally achieving my dreams—would be a beacon of hope.
Thank you for taking the time to read my story.
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Bazi / Re: Seeking Guidance on Career Path: Urban Planning or Law Degree
« on: July 23, 2023, 02:14:54 PM »
Dear Forum Members,
In my understanding, the Metal element embodies characteristics related to the legal profession, communication skills, analysis, and strategic thinking. Conversely, the Earth element in Bazi is associated with practicality, community involvement, and nurturing relationships, which makes it a suitable representation for Urban Planning (or alternatively, Urban Planning may be considered to represent the Wood element).
However, despite considering these attributes, I remain uncertain about which path would be the best fit for me, especially during the next 10 years Luck Pillars (LP) period. I am curious to know whether the Metal element or the Earth/Wood element could potentially provide me with an advantageous edge during this period and ultimately help me make a well-informed decision.
I appreciate any guidance and insights you can offer, and thank you for your time and consideration.
Regards,
In my understanding, the Metal element embodies characteristics related to the legal profession, communication skills, analysis, and strategic thinking. Conversely, the Earth element in Bazi is associated with practicality, community involvement, and nurturing relationships, which makes it a suitable representation for Urban Planning (or alternatively, Urban Planning may be considered to represent the Wood element).
However, despite considering these attributes, I remain uncertain about which path would be the best fit for me, especially during the next 10 years Luck Pillars (LP) period. I am curious to know whether the Metal element or the Earth/Wood element could potentially provide me with an advantageous edge during this period and ultimately help me make a well-informed decision.
I appreciate any guidance and insights you can offer, and thank you for your time and consideration.
Regards,
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Bazi / Seeking Guidance on Career Path: Urban Planning or Law Degree
« on: July 22, 2023, 06:32:36 PM »
Dear Forum Members,
Greetings to all! I am in search of valuable insights from Bazi astrology enthusiasts regarding an important decision in my career path. I kindly request your assistance in interpreting my Bazi based on my date of birth: September 18, 1983, at 2:00 AM in Padang, Indonesia GMT+7.
At present, I am considering two potential educational paths to support my ambition of pursuing a political career. I have a background in law (though not completed), and my options are to either continue my legal studies or pursue a degree in urban planning.
I understand that Bazi calculations might offer some guidance in this matter, and I am open to any interpretations that may arise from my birth data. However, please note that there might be Following Output or Fake Following Output patterns in my Bazi.
Additionally, I have learned that my next 10 LP (Luck Pillars) period is Bing Chen, which might offer significant potential for opportunities.
As my goal is to complement my legal expertise with knowledge in a field that aligns well with the needs of my community and enhances my chances of success as a politician, any insights would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you all for your time and consideration. I am eagerly looking forward to your valuable perspectives and advice.
Best regards,
Greetings to all! I am in search of valuable insights from Bazi astrology enthusiasts regarding an important decision in my career path. I kindly request your assistance in interpreting my Bazi based on my date of birth: September 18, 1983, at 2:00 AM in Padang, Indonesia GMT+7.
At present, I am considering two potential educational paths to support my ambition of pursuing a political career. I have a background in law (though not completed), and my options are to either continue my legal studies or pursue a degree in urban planning.
I understand that Bazi calculations might offer some guidance in this matter, and I am open to any interpretations that may arise from my birth data. However, please note that there might be Following Output or Fake Following Output patterns in my Bazi.
Additionally, I have learned that my next 10 LP (Luck Pillars) period is Bing Chen, which might offer significant potential for opportunities.
As my goal is to complement my legal expertise with knowledge in a field that aligns well with the needs of my community and enhances my chances of success as a politician, any insights would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you all for your time and consideration. I am eagerly looking forward to your valuable perspectives and advice.
Best regards,
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