I can communicate very easily and express my point of view easily, arguing it probably because of the yin water and jia (ren ding) as coldpillow said and mao who is also intelligent - so 3 elements of intelligence water, mao and jia (ren+ding)
nin99,
I know you have encountered countless of rejection from people because of you're different from people. But I tell you, NOT ALL people will reject you if you talk about your weakness or ugly truth. Well, it's not easy to meet such kind of people, you only meet such when your luck to meet helpful people is strong.
In my past, I have helped classmate who had speech impaired disability (worse than you, my classmate can't even talk normally) to communicate and learn. I got no paid of doing so, it's purely voluntary act.
Here I write my life story as CNY gift. Hope it will be useful for you to accept yourself and make peace with yourself and life.
I was born in horrrible dysfunctional family. My parents gave me unforgattable wound, ruined my life completely. My parent has deceitful and violent character
If you watched the recent movie "Mufasa", My parent is like "Obasi", the deceitful and lazy king. He lied a lot to gain followers.
Shortly, I was abused badly during my childhood which cause me to suffer from mental issue. I was able to get out from my parents at my 13 years old, saved by an extended family member. There were years when I was isolated and lost touch with reality and social life. My parents and other People just looked down on me, avoiding me. Alone and No friend at all. Even my own parents who render me to such situation refuse to be responsible over me.
During those years, I played with lots of pets, which enhanced my analytical and intuitive skill. They couldn't talk, so I observed the pattern on how they look like when they are about to be sick, stress, or die and what cause them to be in such condition. Include What makes them happy, so they can grow more beautifully and played with me. Animals don't lie, hence I can get honest result of my own analysis. Over time, I grew deep interest in animals and wild life. Watched a lot discovery channel.
I trained my brain to analyse patterns, so now no one can fool me. I recognise quickly the real fact and the fake theories. What's the real things that works and what's not work. Extreme Rarely, I fall into other people's words no matter how convincing they talk. Even if I fell into someone's convincing words, I quickly realised that!!
I figured out many things by my own.
I read a lot of books of psychology during university years. Eventually, I gained insight of how this world work. It's pretty much similar with the wild.
If the wild life is full of danger, the human life is full of deceit. Afterall, scientists also test medicine on animals, aren't they?
So, many many principles from animals (wild life) are applicable to human life.
Years passed, guess the result? Go to prestigious University: getting A in subject that many many other students failed. Entering big MNC, go international company and work well surpass many experienced employee as fresh graduate.
Able to analysing forex market with high accuracy.
Have strong immune system, due to my immune system being trained intensively by not-so-clean environment. In 2020 when all people fearing Covid 19, I go out frequently without mask. And guess the amazing result? Never being infected by Covid 19 even though I have weak lungs
My inborn health is actually not good, but my immune now is strong, so I rarely fall sick
It's funny to see My brother wore masks everyday and take care of his health very carefully got infected by Covid too.
I didn't like to be clean like many many many people even before researchers publish that being overly clean can render human's immune to be weak.
All starts from me accepting my fate of being different and thus, do my own things that's different from people. accepting being alone and I don't crave anyone's acceptance or friend.
Even so, on the flip side, I possessed high self-centered character which attracts envious people too easily that brings me to my downfall
"When the world turn their back on you, you turn your back too on the world." My favourite quote from "The Lion King1"
See? turning point happened when you accepted your weakness, stop chasing and working for things that don't meant for you. That's the reason you worked very hard but no result in the past, because you failed to acknowledge your own weakness, hence you kept chase for things that don't meant for you.
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